Confessions of a Social Media Addict and a Hopeful Mom

I constantly talk about simplifying my life....I mean always. But, I live everyday almost like it is groundhogs day. I have yet to clean out the junk and take it to the goodwill. I have yet to organize the rest of it.  Each time I check something off my "Big to do" List, I add 2 more things.  Each time I make a plan, something comes up and the next day I don't remember the plan. The truth is I leave the house everyday and I hope nobody notices that I havent shaved my legs for a week. I run my fingers through the mop on my head, throw on leggings and a tshirt and a pair of flip flops and look just barely ok enough to be seen outside my home.  I run to the store, the post office, to drop off customers orders, to pick up customers orders. I unload the dishwasher, take the dog for a walk, feed the fish, do a load of laundry, fill the bird feeder, write the bills, budget the checking account, make meals, weed the flower bed, compost the garden, sweep the porch, take photographs, edit photographs, feed the cat, do the dishes, put the laundry away......DO YOU GET THE FULL PICTURE?  This is all before I pick up the kid; take her to the park, try to get her to take a nap, do a craft with her, read to her, help her clean up her toys, make her snacks, make her lunch, watch her play on her playset. THAT IS ALOT of stuff and I DO try to streamline it all. BUT in between all of that I dont fit in learning the alphabet, practicing hopping on one foot, or even sitting down to eat a meal together

And I am forever posting the cute little crafts that I do and the recipes that I concoct and share with friends.
BUT, I have a few confessions....last Tuesday was the first night that I have ever played "baby dolls" with my daughter.  She is almost 4. THAT IS A SIN! THAT ISNT remotely acceptable....and I didnt realize it until I was midway through my persona as Princess Merida!
And you know what , when I confessed this all to a few of my closest friends, they told me that they too had moments just like this and that I was "NORMAL". It is, they are right.
BUT, it doesnt have to be this way.
I have a choice.
Tonight, I turned off my FB account on purpose for 90+ days.

For the first 5 minutes after I posted that I was FB Fasting til September 1st I wanted to log back on and see what everyone thought. How many LIKES did I get?  Ya know what? My friend Nichole sent me a text message and said: "You have inspired me mama, and I am JOINING you!"
I betcha if my computer counted, it would tell you that I WASTE HOURS on social media. AND if my kids toys counted they would tell you they dont even know who I am.
How sad is that? How sad?
My daughter, who I describe as the most precious being in my life is actually falling behind an update from a person I may not have seen in 20 years.  I love old friends, but as much as my daughter???  And really do they care that I saved a bunch of money by switching to Geico! NO!
So, I havent turned it back on in 1 hr and ya know how I feel? ya know how Nichole said she felt after doing the same thing? FREE!
My Gram baked pies with me, she showed me how to use the washer with the wringer. We planted seeds and picked vegetables. We painted rock and went swimming in the creek. My parents were busy...for the first 15 years of my life. I remember vacations with them. I remember spending time with them in their restaurant. They didnt have FB then...they had WORK!
I broke the back on this damn I phone twice in 1 week! Smart phone = dumb mom! There I said it.
I have gone to numerous kid events and watched 50% of the parents updating statuses about being at the place with their kids the entire time they are at the event.  PUT your PHONE AWAY! BE with your kid!
Mine is sleeping right now.  Before she fell asleep, I played Lincoln Logs with her. And WE loved it!
She said, you are the best mom ever and I am sorry for yelling when Lathan was here! She breathed a sigh and she got it....and ya know what...THAT is what counts!

Val and I went over REAL food ideas for our families today. And perhaps my husband will never "get it" but in the last week I have seen to many changes in my crazy daughter just by taking away artificial flavors and colors to not believe that she is what she eats...so I am running with that. She is SMART and I am going to feed her brain food. And guess what....I dont need to tell 486 friends about it. This blog is my diary and I just want her to know someday the journey I have been on as her mom!

This summer I am saying no to photo sessions on a Sunday and saying YES to sitting down and hearing JESUS talk to me. I miss him! I miss the person I am when I am filled to the brim with him! My tank is almost empty! Thank GOD he is patiently waiting to fill me up! I need him to fill my family up.
Jim and I dont always see eye to eye, and thank God that HE helps us stay heart to heart!

SO, goodbye FB and Thank God I dont tweet. Goodbye Kim Kardashian as my headline news! Buy maternity clothes! Goodbye the background news of TV...I dont need you! Goodbye Crappy food from my cupboards. HELLO LIFE...HELLO LIFE!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BY6VAy9y_iQ
HERE I AM!
Thank You God for renewing me!