I've been fat my whole life, except for 4 years of skinnyness, and for some of that time I bordered on unhealthy.
The simple reason I weigh more than I should is the same equation and reason 90% of the people who are fat, ARE fat...I LOVE FOOD! All of it. Food is my social outlet. When people ask you to do something 99.9% of the time it is centered around food. When you want to celebrate a holiday or a special happening, you do it with food. When you reach a milestone, what do you do...yep, that's right celebrate at the Olive Garden.
Here is where I may not be like everyone else, once I get started with good food and I in turn feel that i have failed at staying within a normal daily intake...I KEEP EATING! My everyday mantra: "Well, I screwed up today so far, so I might as well eat everything I can" and start again tomorrow....AND THEN TOMORROW I SAY THE SAME THING.
I am 35, almost 36 years old, and I am fed up. Although, most days, I am as fed up as today.
This morning, I decided to go to our neighborhood Farmers Market and shop for fresh produce that will be enough for at least the next 3 days worth of meals...THAT IS SATURDAY, SUNDAY, MONDAY...and then go to the store and supplement what I have left of the fresh stuff with new stuff.
I am not starting tomorrow. I am not starting after the weekend. I am starting right now!
In front of this computer screen is a little girl that is counting on me. When i was walking out of the grocery store with her in the cart today I thought, "am I wrong to make her an only child? When I am gone, who will she have?" and then I said, almost out loud to myself, You have at least 35 good years on you, Stace!" But do I? If I keep eating like this and not exercising. 1: Am I really living? and 2. Am I adding or subtracting life from my years? And what about the life in my years with Audrey?
So, here I am friends. Here I am Lord. I AM READY for a change in myself, for happiness in something other than food to overtake me. To be changed by it all. I AM READY.
I waste to much damn time on this computer..LOL....and here I am wasting more, right?
But, it's not a waste. Maybe I can help somebody else along the way? Maybe just getting it out and being honest is the best way for me to finally do this!
So, from here on out, I am going to HONESTLY tell you EVERYDAY what I eat, what exercise I get, How I really feel. I'll take pics, add my own made-up recipes.
AND, when ( not if) I hit my goal, I will tell you how much I weighed when I started out and all those juicy specifics that everyone really wishes they knew. BUT, not until then.
I CAN DO THIS! I CAN DO ANYTHING!
With LOve,
The Fat Girl!
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