Life with Audrey

Audrey is 17 days old.

Life with a new born is alot harder than I ever could have imagined. Any new mom who doesn't agree with that must have be a SUPER WOMAN. I am not.

I have dealt with euphoria and worry. I have had nights of sleeplessness and moments of wonder with this amazing little girl.

She is beautiful. I am her mom...but I have had alot of people say how absolutely perfect her little round head is.

She looks like Jimmy, but she changes everyday. She has his chin dimple. She has his lips.

I think her hair is getting lighter. I think she is going to have my brown eyes.

I love when she laughs in her sleep. I love when she stares at me when I am feeding her. I call her my little Hummingbird.

Last week, we realized that I was not making enough breas

tmilk for Audrey.

We are now supplementing with formula. This decision wasnt as hard for me as I thought. I enjoyed breastfeeding her, but as I have realized throughout my pregnancy and now motherhood, it doesnt matter always what I think is best...Audrey tells me what she needs. I just have to be silent sometimes and really listen to her.

In these 17 days, we have had alot of visitors. It is great to have everyone love her up...but now that the visitors have slowed...it is great to just spend time with her and Jim at home and get to know what her real internal schedule is.

So far, Audrey has taught me that she loves her Glowing Seahorse and enjoys short jaunts in her swing. She likes to lay on her side and she loves comfy pillows and blankets to sleep on. She enjoys her baths...most of the time. She looks best in "Cinderella" blue and brown.

I realized that being a mom has made me more in love with my husband. I think I even kiss him differently, maybe more passionately. Watching him with Audrey...well..it makes me love him more. I love that he can quiet her when I cannot. I love the way his arms seem to hold her

differently than any other persons, tighter.

I love spending time with my mom, even more than ever. what she has taught me about being a mother is immeasurable. Nobody taught me what it looks like when a baby has to poop or what it means when the baby's legs scoot up( bellyache).What you learn from your mother is invaluable.

But.....OH...what a baby teaches you. This is the start of Life with Audrey....I can't recall life being anything better!!!