Well, it's just another day.....

My days are slowing down, especially when it gets close to 90 degrees outside, like today.

My typical day includes doing the laundry, cleaning around the house, caring for Molli and the cats, taking care of my flower beds and the bird feeders, whipping up a meal or a special dessert or both, reading. I spend alot of time on the computer, which is an activity that I am beginning to loathe as wasted time. I am finding a new joy in cooking, making up my own recipes sometimes. I take a nap almost everyday.

On other days, I fill my calendar up with lunch with friends, cheering the team at Jim's softball games. I think this past Tuesday was my last visit to Bingo. The chairs are a bit uncomfortable now. I wanted to go see the new Harry Potter, but I think that too would be a bit too long to sit in the same seat.

I have been bouncing on the exercise/birthing ball for a few minutes each day, hoping that the baby is getting the idea that they should be working their way to the birth canal.

Baby is still moving alot, and as always, the busiest from 9 to 11 pm.

My gut tells me that I have WEEKS to go...uncomfortable weeks. I think I will probably make it to me original due date of August 7th, maybe further...So what does that mean...21 days. Yep...maybe longer.

I am feeling very achy, especially my hips. Lots of pressure in my nether region. I feel like I have to turn from side to side while sleeping every 10 minutes. I feel bad, because I think I keep Jim up. My belly is streched to the max. Sometimes the baby sits just above my belly button and pushes my belly out farther.

My boobs hurt. My feet hurt and seem thicker in the soles. My left hand is asleep all day long. I am huge and my body feels stressed to the gills.

I worry about the complaining...that something will be wrong with the baby because I seem so ungrateful. I worry so much that I feel guilty for saying that I feel achy. All I want is a healthy baby, just like everyone else. Yet, still I worry. Will I be the person who is tasked with raising a child with special needs? Will the baby come out and need a NICU, since the hospital we chose is not equipped? Will I really be able to birth a baby? Am I a wimp?