Pregnancy is such an emotional experience. I have never been filled with more concern; and I so want to replace that with excitement. I am 100% responsible for this little human...who is now 2 inches long and is developing all of it's major organs. The slightest change in my body races me to concern. I havent felt as sick this week...and that concerns me. I realize that the morning sickness eases...but what if it is an indication that something is wrong. I don"t feel as bloated today and my belly doesnt feel as hard...and instead of being grateful for a "feel good day", I park myself on the couch and research every possible reason for concern on the internet.
I have found a few people who have eased my mind when I state my continuous concerns...because they too have had similiar worries.
Am I getting the right nutrients, am I taking in too much sodium, should I be exercising more, am I sleeping in the wrong position, am I drinking enough water, am I neglecting my husband or being mean to him, am I scarying my friends with no children into not wanting to embark on this journey because of my stories, am I laying everything that I should be at God's feet and trusting that he will lead this little spirit into the world as a healthy new life.
We have our second official appointment on the 27th...so 11 days away. I will be at week 13 then...entering my second trimester. All I want to do is hear the baby's heartbeat and see it...and be reassured that this little life is growing strong inside me.
This week, I had my blood panels done and my RH Test. Results to follow. Note to friends..once they find which arm gives blood...let every person know for future reference. My right arm doesnt give blood...so now my arm looks like I have track marks.
I am leaning against opting for the CVS testing and Amniocentisis. Jim and I will decide in the next week.
For now...I am craving strawberries and dip....so off to the store to fulfill my dream!!
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